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Corporate spaces are mostly capitalist and ableist. Despite all the talk about DE&I policies, they are rarely supportive to invisible disabilities.
October is observed as Disability Employment Awareness Month in the US, so I decided to write about one of my experiences with employment as a disabled person.
The scenario is the same whether it’s India or the US. How do I know this? Because I am one of them. My disability—clinical depression—is invisible, but it still qualifies as a disability.
I have been living with clinical depression since the age of 13, and I have learned to handle it reasonably well. Plus, I have medium-functioning depression, which means it impacts me moderately. As a result, even though I have been chronically depressed, I completed my postgraduation in my chosen fields of study. In fact, I have been able to make quite a few life choices despite the presence of depression.
So I confided in her and told her about my struggles with depression, thinking that I was finally going to get some much-needed mental health support at work.
At first, she was supportive in the sense that she made time to listen to what I had to say. If I felt a depressive episode coming on, she encouraged me to tell her about it so that my workload could be rescheduled accordingly.
But just a month or so later, I noticed that she grew tired of being supportive. It was as if she expected me to snap out of my depression after a while, even though I had told her it was a chronic condition. I don’t know what got into her but she began gaslighting as well as talking down to me.
Our supportive talks ended abruptly and were replaced by weekly one-on-one grilling, where she compared my productivity levels with neuro-typical peers and asked for explanations. When I told her why my pace of work was slower, I was told off for making excuses and not trying hard enough. I was also asked to turn in daily reports that accounted for how I was spending every minute of my time at work.
Needless to say, this was demeaning and ableist on her part and made me both anxious and angry. So I quit as soon as I could because I had never felt so othered at any other place of work in my life. Even though I was doing the best I could, and my coworkers had no complaints, my manager’s mistreatment made me feel incompetent. It took me a couple of years to build up my self-confidence, for she had crushed mine.
In fact, she is one of the primary reasons why I turned to freelancing. Now that I have written about depression for platforms like HealthyPlace, TheSpill, Metro, and my blog, in which I speak of my challenges, I have made it harder for myself to secure a full-time job in the future.
The D-word turns off a lot of employers, and like most disabilities, makes them think of people with depression as liabilities.
What will it take for this attitude to change? People with disabilities too have rights at work. But when will we get them? It is very easy to indulge in practices like wellbeing washing. When will companies actually start caring about the wellness of their employees?
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If you or anyone you know is feeling depressed or suicidal, here are some of the helplines available in India. Please call.
Aasra, Mumbai: 022-27546669 Sneha, Chennai: 044-2464 0050 Lifeline, Kolkata: 033-2474 4704 Sahai, Bangalore: 080-25497777 Roshni, Hyderabad: 040-66202000, 040-66202001 SPEAK2us – Tamilnadu 9375493754
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Mahevash Shaikh is a millennial blogger, author, and poet who writes about mental health, culture, and society. She lives to question convention and redefine normal. read more...
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UP Boards Topper Prachi Nigam was trolled on social media for her facial hair; our obsession with appearance is harsh on young minds.
Prachi Nigam’s photo has been doing the rounds on social media for the right reasons. Well, scratch that- I wish the above statement were true. This 15-year-old girl should ideally be revelling in her spectacular achievement of scoring a whopping 98.05% and topping her tenth-grade boards. But oddly enough, along with her marks, it’s something else that garners more attention – her facial hair.
While the trolls are driving themselves giddy by mocking this girl who hasn’t even completed her school yet, the ones who are taking her side are going one step ahead – they are sharing her photoshopped pictures, sans the facial hair, looking nothing less than a celebrity with captions saying – “Prachi Nigam, ten years later”.
Doctors have already diagnosed her with PCOD in their comments, based on photographic evidence. While we have names for people shamed for their weight – body shaming, for their skin colour- racism, for their age- age shaming, for being a female- sexism, this category of shaming where one faces criticism for their appearance has no name. With that, it also has zero shame attached to it.
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