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More Than My Body

Posted: April 13, 2013

I am boarding a train at Chennai’s enormous Central station. As I walk to my platform, a man walking rapidly, with his bag slung over his shoulder and talking to someone behind him almost smashes into me. Then another.

Neither collision is intentional. Crowded spaces, masses of people hurrying to get to wherever they need to be. And yet, I am unable to recall when on any of my journeys through bus depots and railway stations, has any woman ever walked into me. 

Women stumble, fall, bump into you; it is only men who have the luxury of walking with such abandon that they walk right into the person ahead. I envy men. There it is. Not penis envy, as good old Freud posited but I envy them that they can forget about gender in a way women never can.

Men own spaces, women in public spaces merely beg the fleeting use of them. Try sitting at the beach by yourself (if you are a woman) and you will know exactly what I mean. A lone woman, doing nothing, is an oddity that must be leered at and of course made fraandship to. A friend who visited the beach with her child recently, told me how two young men who gave children horse rides brought their horses uncomfortably close to her, and while the horses peed, indulged in crude jokes about the animals’ penises; because you know, even if a man is the one talking rubbish, it is a woman who must feel dirty. A lone woman learns to arm herself with the righteousness of purpose. Good women don’t loiter.

Men can forget their bodies. When a man’s body slams into me at the railway station because he isn’t looking ahead of him, I’m the one who is embarrassed. As women, we are constantly aware of our bodies and who might encroach on them. Intentional or unintentional, the result can sometimes be the same, nor do we always know which one it is.

The stray hand that brushes against your breast unerringly has only lost its way “because the bus is too crowded.” Right, we believe you. But when a man slams so hard against fourteen year old me in a market that his elbow leaves a bruise on my chest, the thought that he was “just in a hurry” doesn’t make me feel better either.

When conversations about these things begin, there is always someone, usually a man, quick to point out, “but not all men are like this.” Relax, it’s not about you. If two out of ten men will try to grope me and another one stay blissfully unaware of the space his body is intruding into, I’m not going to wait around to identify the other seven, am I? Hands, books, bags across the chest, oversized clothes, eyes constantly on the watch for pervs (or the careless), walking quickly, looking busy, no loitering, these are the tricks that women adopt in public places.

I am more than my body, but on the road, the body is all there is. What would it be like to walk as though my body was just a part of me and not a precious thing that needs to be guarded? I am unable to imagine.

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  1. Brilliant Aparna- this is something all Indian women feel. You have put down words so beautifully – thank you for writing about this

  2. Men own spaces, women in public spaces merely beg the fleeting use of them. Powerful writing Aparna!

  3. Hip Grandma

    In a world where rape victims are accused of inviting rapists to rape them women are bound to feel guilty for any such experience. Society makes it worse by emphasising the fact that women “ask” for it.

  4. sandhya renukamba

    Seconding all the three comments above, Aparna. Sharing.

  5. Thanks all ladies. I wrote this once I boarded the train. The carelessness with which some men feel they can use spaces, not worrying a bit about what they are intruding on, amazed me so much that I just had to put this down.

  6. I walk with abandon. It took me a while to master it. But now I walk as if I owned the world. After all, we women hold up half the sky.

  7. Very well said. well articulated, Best wishes. Sujatha

  8. So so true, I’m sure most women in India have gone through this, some bring it to the fore and u did beautifully

  9. Just think about why there are rapes so many in India as compared to western countries like US, England, France etc. Why India/Pakistan tops the world in number of ‘porn’ searches….why a country where there is a ‘GREAT RESPECT’ for woman is also the country where she faces so much domestic violence and physical abuse

    Let me tell you why

    It is not because Indian men are hornier than their western counterparts….it is also not because indian women are so much more irresistible.

    It is because SEX is such a taboo in Indian Societies. It is an offense to even say this word. More it will be suppressed, more crimes would occur. It is one of the basic needs of human being like food. Let men and women have more sex.

    Removing all the social stigma associated with sex is the only lasting solution to these crimes.

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