Ek Ladki Ko Dekha Toh Aisa Lagaa Touched My Biggest Fear As A Parent And No, It’s Not About Same Sex Love

Will your child feel comfortable coming up to you if he is gay? Or if she is going through heartache? Have you ensured that they will feel supported, no matter what?

Will your child feel comfortable coming up to you if he is gay? Or if she is going through heartache? Have you ensured that they will feel supported, no matter what?

As appreciation for the recently released movie Ek Ladki Toh Dekha Toh Aisa Lagaa pours in from people from different strata of society, I look back at several conversations I have had with my husband and my friends about how we’ll be ‘privileged’ if our kids decided to marry someone of the opposite gender. “With decriminalisation of same sex marriages, you never know how matters shape up, you know.”

However, after watching the movie, I am at a loss of words. To consider the possibility that my son might be gay and think that ‘I am OK with it’ is one thing, but to face such a reality and rise up to the occasion as a truly progressive, parent of the modern era, is an altogether different ball game.

I know I still have another 6-8 years to prepare myself and figure things out. But while I was watching the movie, I realised that there is another fear that engulfs me as a parent. It is the FOMO syndrome in its worst form. Yes, it’s the Fear Of Missing Out on that phase of my kids’ lives when they will be all wound up inside, fearing that opening up to their parents might have repercussions.

My Fear As A Parent

No, it’s not just about coming out of the closet with a revelation of their sexual orientation.

Remember that time in high school when you had your first heart break (even if you were only a teenager and it was just a crush)? I definitely want to hold my neck and stick my tongue out at myself at how I had sulked for months before I got my gears under control. I also want to apologise to my family and my friends who had to bear my mood swings without even knowing what had caught me. But as stupid and laugh-worthy as it may sound today, I know that I was really broken then. But on second thoughts, I also remember how stifled I had felt because despite my mother being there around me, always trying to figure what was wrong with me, I was too scared to confess anything to her.

“This is the time to focus on your career!”

“Are we working so hard and providing for all your needs so that you go and waste time and energy over a boy?”

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These are the reactions I had anticipated and tried to keep my heartbreak under wraps.

Ever read about a teenager who ended her life, with a note that she knew that her parents would never understand her love for a guy from a different caste?

Well, we as educated and informed parents might have come a long way, but it’s not just heartbreak. There are other things too, that could lead your kid to feel distressed. Peer pressure, career related pressures, issues with body shaming are other things that I know for sure affect teenagers and young adults to a huge extentAnd more often than not, the generation gap between the kid and parents is most evident in this phase. As a mother, it breaks my heart to even think that at a time when my kid’s soul is bleeding with the hurt, I might not be able to reach out to him and sooth him to comfort. But then, what could I possibly do to make sure that my kid does not feel trapped in a glass cube when the time arrives?

Until some time back, I would have possibly said that I would cross the bridge when I come to it. But today, as I walked out of the movie hall, the visions of how helpless and let down Anil Kapoor the father, felt when he reads through hundreds of pages of his daughter’s diaries, about all that she has been through all this while all alone tugged at my heart. Much as no child deserves to bleed her heart out, neither does any parent deserve to come to terms with the reality that they weren’t there when their child needed them the most. But what do we do about it? How can we ensure that when such a time comes, the kid does not hesitate to come forth and talk it out?

Obviously, a parent cannot go around the house, blowing a trumpet with such an announcement as, “Oh My Dear Child! If you are gay, or have any form of heartache to discuss, come to me. I am there.”  So what can I as a mother of a six year old do today to prepare for the eventualities of the future?

How do I ensure that my child feels free to reach out?

I have made some promises to myself, so that I never have to face that moment of truth and say to myself,


Promise 1

Never forget that my child is an adult in the making and what I tell him now, will remain with him forever.

Promise 2

Never shy away from conversations on issues that might be uncomfortable. A child’s mind is a clean slate. It will get filled up with what I tell him. That’s better than him trying to fill it up with faulty shades.

Promise 3

Never criticize others in front of my child. His innocent yet smart mind will draw the connection and conclude that the principles remain the same for everyone.

Promise 4

I am not a police person who has to reprimand the child for breaking rules.  My role is that of a life coach, a mentor and a guide. It’s a long life, and the point is to pull back the kid on track whenever he goes astray.

I know as my kid grows and I too grow as a parent, I will add to this list. But for now, I feel if I am able to keep these promises, I shall be in a good position to assure myself that my kid will know who to walk up to if he needs to bare his heart out.

And yes, I always pray to god, to give me the strength to be able to stand by my kid’s side come what may.

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